Thursday, April 30, 2009
the journalling reads....
August 2004 You 2 asked permission to go out in the canoe alone. "Just along the edges of the lake", I say. "Okay", you both agree. On with the life jackets and into the canoe...Straight across the middle of the lake...You were gone for an hour. The entire time I watched and waited for your return with my heart in my throat. 2 more grey hairs earned. 2 happy boys!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Anyway, Tuesday was a particularly busy day.... but at least it came with answers! I had Timmy's friend, Jacob, for the day (I felt bad as we ran him around all day but tried to make up for it in the afternoon) not quite the day of play he bargained for, though. First Timmy had an appointment at McMaster Hopital, then we went to the Hamilton passport office since we were so close. The boys were so good, they played in the play room at McMaster and waited as patiently as two 6 year old boys can in the passport office... so we treated them to lunch at McDonald's ( I know yuck! But the kids love it!), after lunch we went to Toys R Us to get Timmy and Jacob a new Bakugan. Then we ran a few more errands. We made a stop on the way home to treat the kids to apple cider donuts at a little farmers market store. Yum!
But as I said, the day came with answers.... our little Timmy has been suffering with seizures for over two years now, and we finally received a diagnosis on Tuesday. He was such a trooper through all of the testing, some of it non invasive and some of it down right yucky, for a little guy, but he held strong. I am so proud of him. Timmy has what is called Reflex Anoxic Seizures, which are triggered through an unpleasant, painfully or scary stimuli or rapid temperature changes, especially in water. Which causes his heart and breathing to stop, resulting in a full blown spasming seizure. It only lasts about a minute from start to finish, but feels like an eternity. Then his brain needs a long nap in order to recover.The bad news is there is no cure, the good news is he stands a very strong chance of outgrowing this, and this knowledge is our light at the end of the tunnel. It allows us to be hopeful that he will have a normal future, if the seizures go away he will be able to drive and have his freedom, like his peers. Being a non-driver myself, this freedom is so important to me, for him.
However, I am truly thankful that he was not diagnosed with a life threatening illness or something that will drastically reduce his quality of life, so even if he doesn't recover he will still have a full life.
Also, with a diagnosis we can educate his school family about his needs should he have a seizure there. This also brings peace of mind.
Now we, his parents, will look for a way to balance keeping our little daredevil active, while keeping him safe. Might be easier to deal if he was a couch potato!
Monday, April 13, 2009
My DH, Ian, drew the name of the winner ...... congrats Sue, it is you!! Privately email me or facebook me with your address and I will mail out your prize!!
Thanks to everyone who played along!
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Friday, April 03, 2009
Chris, if you check this out before I see you, guess which one is yours;).
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Okay, so it may be a little dramatic to feel so overwhelmed about the completion of your first year of school. Yes, I know it’s only JK! Yes, I know you only went half time!
But for me, it’s so much more than all of that. Of my 3 boys, you were the hardest to send off to school. When your brothers were young and beginning their school careers, I was also young and admittedly naive. I don’t think I fully appreciated how quickly children grow up once they start school. Back then I had a career, that I needed to maintain. Motherhood was always a goal of mine, but seemingly, at the time, it came fairly easy to me.
Until you came along, that is. With you we had so much worry and insecurity about whether you would become our forever son. The battle was long, and very hard at times, but with you in our arms we never lost sight of the prize. We had the luxury of loving you from birth, but you were almost 2 ½ before you became forever ours. And two years later I was taking you to school… to be taught and nurtured by someone else. It felt like I was giving you away. I sobbed all the way home, that very first day of school. I thought my heart would break. Especially when you shed a tear or two as we said goodbye.
This first year of school, we both learned a lot. You blossomed in your classroom, with your wonderful teacher and friends. I learned that I can let you grow and shine and that you will still always be mine.
Now, at the end of your first school year, I want you to know … I love you little man, I am so very proud of you. I am here to cheer you through all the years of your education and beyond. There is a wonderful big world just waiting for you to take hold of it and make it yours!